KOTA KINABALU - Sabarah Jili, 69, is refusing to eat and drink as she mourns the sudden death of her son whom she fondly called Jikah.
"Since young, Jikah would always come and lie on my lap. Even after he got married and had children of his own, he would still do it. (Kpl Razkan Seran was known as Jikah to his family and other villagers.)
"He was a good boy and very cheerful. He would always call to check on me and when he came back to Kota Kinabalu he would drop by.
"He always bought clothes for me," said Sabarah, who has been crying incessantly, adding that her son re-built the family house when he started working with the police force.
There was an air of disbelief and grief at the wooden stilt house, the family residence of Kpl Razkan, 31, who was among six killed in Saturday's helicopter crash in Semenyih.
"It just can't be true," said Sabarah in her native Bajau language at their home in remote Kampung Saradan in Tenghilan, about 70km from here.
The confirmation of Kpl Razkan's death came at about midnight when TV news announced the names of the six people.
A team of policemen also came to the house to deliver the news.
Kpl Razkan, the fourth sibling among three boys and two girls, last met his mother in the middle of December while on a trip to Sabah.
Their father Seran Milan died in 1994. The children were looked after by the mother who planted padi for a living.
Kpl Razkan leaves behind wife Setinurafeni Andu, 30, two-year-old son Ahmad Qais and six-year-old daughter Nur Aqilah Darwisyah.
A member of the police Unit Tindakan Khas (Special Action Force), he had served in the Eastern Sabah Security Command before he was asked to be Tan Sri Jamaluddin Jarjis' bodyguard.
A childhood friend and relative, Rosman Rodiman, 31, said Kpl Razkan sent him a WhatsApp message at about 3pm on Saturday telling him that he was waiting for his boss "JJ", who was playing golf at the Kelab Golf di-Raja Pekan.
"That was the last I heard from him. Then I heard about the helicopter crash involving Jamaluddin. I was shocked as I knew that he (Kpl Razkan) was in that chopper," said Rosman.
Kpl Rakzan's remains are scheduled to buried at his hometown in Tuaran.