KUALA LUMPUR - For the mother of an Iranian who boarded MH370 with a false passport, each day since the flight vanished on March 8 has been "a slow death" .
Niloufar Vaezi Tehrani, who is based in Germany, described herself as a woman with a heart full of pain.
"I'm going to a psychologist because not only did I lose my son, I lost my life. I missed my train because I can't concentrate. When I wake up, I would go the TV and laptop for news and suddenly I realise the day has passed," said Niloufar, 47.
She told The Star that Pouria Nourmohammadi, 19, had e-mailed her earlier, saying he had plans to fly to Malaysia and then use a false passport to get to Germany.
The chemical engineering student yearned to see his mother, who is battling stage two breast cancer.
In the early days of the MH370 crisis, global attention was fixated on the blurry images of two Iranians identified by police as imposters who had used false passports.
For a time, Pouria was a prime suspect in the disappearance of the Boeing 777. There was speculation then that he was a terrorist.
The simple truth, however, was the story of a son desperately trying to reunite with his mother, no matter the cost.
While the families of the MH370 crew and passengers came under the care of Malaysia Airlines and volunteers, Niloufar said she had been suffering alone.
"These days, nobody takes care of me. I don't know anything about MH370. I don't know what happened to my son. MAS and the Malaysian authorities never once spoke to me or gave me information about my son," she claimed.
The former midwife fled Teheran two years ago after suffering abuse at the hands of her husband.
Niloufar took her youngest son Ilia, 14, with her and settled in Germany.
"She had difficulty getting Pouria out due to his age then," said Niloufar's lawyer Dan Gilleon.
Pouria, 19, and Delavar Seyed Mohammad Reza, 29, boarded the ill-fated plane using passports belonging to an Austrian and Italian national respectively on March 8. They were to fly to Beijing and then take a connecting flight to Frankfurt, where Niloufar was waiting.
It is believed the duo used the Italian and Austrian documents as those passports did not require visas to enter Germany.
"He wanted to see his sick mother. Okay, find him and punish him. But I just want to know about my son," said an emotional Niloufar.
Niloufar and Gilleon are now planning to pursue a wrongful death claim against MAS.
Gilleon claimed MAS had refused to release Pouria's ticketing information, which is needed to determine the jurisdiction for a lawsuit, adding that MAS cited ongoing investigations against Pouria as the reason.
Niloufar said all she could do now was to wait and pray, hoping that authorities would understand that she was just a parent looking for her loved one.
"I saw a picture of one of the crew's wife giving birth. I know how she must have suffered. These days, I pray not only for Pouria but all the passengers to be safe and for God to bless them. I hope the world will not forget us," she said.