Almost a year has passed since her four-year-old son's death but time has done little to ease her pain.
She still has his clothes, despite being advised by friends to give them away. She can't bear to do so because they are all that she has to remind her of him.
Muhammad Irfan Salam, who had epilepsy, was found motionless in his home, a two-room rented flat at Block 149, Lorong 1 Toa Payoh, at around 7am last April 7.
Paramedics pronounced him dead about 30 minutes later.
A coroner's inquiry into Irfan's death returned an open verdict on Friday.
In his findings, State Coroner Marvin Bay said this was because it could not be determined how Nitrazepam, a drug used to relieve severe anxiety and insomnia, got into Irfan's system when it had not been prescribed to him.
Last Tuesday, Irfan's mother, Madam Rosnani Ismail, 35, was at the State Courts to give her testimony on the case.
She told The New Paper outside the court that she still keeps his clothes and cannot bear to part with them.
Tearing, she said in Malay: "My friends often tell me to get rid of them. But I can't.
"I will never throw his clothes away. Sometimes I will take them out and hold them against me. I miss him so much."
It is not just his smell that reminds her of him.
"Once in a while, I hear his voice calling out to me, 'Mummy, Mummy'.
"There were also times before I fell asleep that I thought I could see him standing nearby. I would get up with a start and realise it was just my imagination. My baby is gone forever."
Madam Rosnani said she has given birth to eight children in all.
The cleaner married her first husband in 1999 and they had two daughters.