After my father was pronounced dead at 3:18am on Monday, March 23, the Government declared a week of national mourning.
On the first two days, a private wake was held at the Prime Minister's official residence at Sri Temasek, inside the Istana grounds.
I turned up to greet relatives, doctors, friends and security officers (SOs) who had served Papa but left his team before he died.
That Wednesday, the casket was carried on a gun carriage through the Istana grounds, where Papa had spent so much of his time at work and for exercise.
Papa had been extremely ill since Feb 5, suffering severe breathing problems. I had slept poorly since then and, while waiting for the procession to leave Sri Temasek, I could not stand the physical strain any further and went home, where I stayed until the day of the funeral, held that Sunday.
I was spared from delivering a eulogy at the official funeral service, held at the University Cultural Centre (UCC) along Kent Ridge Crescent, off Clementi Road.
Perhaps that was why the eulogy I gave at the private funeral at the Mandai crematorium attracted attention.
I had not intended to deliver one because my father, when he was alive, replied "no need" when I asked whether he wished his children to each give a eulogy.
I did so at the request of my elder brother, Hsien Loong. As only I, among my siblings, knew how hard the SOs and doctors had worked to make Papa's last years and especially the last seven weeks comfortable, I dedicated most of my eulogy to them, especially the SOs who made it possible for Papa to spend most of his last five years at home.
The SOs and I were like soldiers who fought a war together - a special bond was forged that continues even now, when we do not meet daily.
After Papa's death, I received e-mail and snail mail from many people I didn't know. One, a woman named Candy, e-mailed me daily.
She said I had cured her when she was a child. I cannot remember, but would reply once a week.
One day, she e-mailed me a Facebook link with 378 comments about my eulogy. I read all of them because total strangers had bothered to respond to me, to wish me well, and some prayed for me.
What struck me was the number of posts responding to the penultimate paragraph of my eulogy, which read: "I nearly broke down, but I won't break down. I am a Hakka woman."
Many said they were Hakka too, and obviously knew what I meant by my remark - that Hakka women are known for being resilient and tough. Quite a few said they were proud to be Hakka women.
Even more posts urged me to allow myself to express my emotion and my tears, saying it would be good for my health and help me recover emotionally.
Many expressed astonishment and even alarm that I did not cry.
As I had written in my earlier columns, I grew up in an undemonstrative family. I was also imbued with Chinese culture from a very young age.
I spent 14 years, from the age of three, in a Chinese educational environment. Many of my school teachers originated from China. In Chinese culture, especially Confucianism, the ideal cultured person does not make a show of emotions.
We rarely, if ever, hug or kiss a friend when we meet. In English, praise is accepted with a "thank you" but, in Chinese, we reply "guojiang", which means "excessive praise", instead.
In my eulogy, I used the Chinese aphorism, "the relationship between two honourable people is as understated as plain water". This too is a concept that most English-educated people might find hard to understand.
Thus, my nature and my Chinese education tempered me from displaying my feelings in public. I have my way of dealing with loss.
Exercise, and re-reading articles in The Straits Times and Sunday Times relating to Papa's death, helped me through the worst period.The residual ache remains.
One post was spot on. It read: "Dear Dr Wei Ling, you have been caring for both of them. Every daily task will remind you of the emptiness. Memories will bring tears. Cry whenever you want to."
Yes, every morning when I awoke, assuming I had been able to sleep through to at least 6am, my first thought was to check on Papa in his bedroom, then retrieve the nightly log of Papa's condition -a notebook- from his study, where two SOs were standing by.
Across the corridor from my room hangs a large portrait of Mama,her hair completely white.
But that gentle smile that lit her face is how I remember her in life. The portrait now reminds me that there is no longer any need to check on Papa.
They are both gone. But I don't cry - that achieves nothing. I start my exercise. I had an operation on my foot to correct a deformity in early May.
So, for the first few weeks, exercise consisted of going up and down the corridor on crutches, followed by binding a 2kg weight on the ankle of the operated foot and moving the leg in the way that I would have to do to walk and run.
I have since graduated to limping swiftly up and down the corridor.
The only tears I have shed fell the first few times I re-read the newspaper coverage of the lying-in-state and the funeral.
But the pain is lessened by the unexpected outpouring of sorrow by so many people, their mutual kindness and consideration while queuing for up to 10 hours through the day and night, the generosity of people and companies in giving out food, drinks, umbrellas and flowers to fellow humans queuing to pay those last respects or waiting in torrential rain for the gun carriage carrying Papa to UCC to pass by.
To all who have expressed concern for me, my thanks to you. There is one post that stands out. The writer was one Ajoy Kumar, who wrote: "Extraordinary person like her father. She mentions the names of each of the people and thanked them individually. I salute and respect her."
My parents and I believe goodwill goes both ways. And so, for this 50th National Day, and the National Day Parade, the first from which my father will be absent, I offer my thanks to those who tended to my father and for all the good wishes that I have received.
This grateful daughter and caregiver couldn't have asked for more from fellow Singaporeans.
This article was first published on Aug 9, 2015.
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