Madison Beer thought her suicidal thoughts were 'normal' at age 16

Madison Beer thought her suicidal thoughts were 'normal' at age 16
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Madison Beer considered her suicidal thoughts to be "normal" at the age of 16.

The 24-year-old singer has recalled contemplating suicide as a teenager, revealing that at the time, she didn't consider her suicidal thoughts to be unusual.

In an excerpt from her new memoir, The Half of It - which has been shared with People - Madison explains: "I felt like I was my own worst enemy.

"I retreated more and more into myself, and it was the beginning of some of the darkest years of my life, starting at age 16 and following me into my 20s. There were many times - just like the night my nudes were leaked - that I felt so backed into a corner I thought the only way out was to end my life.

"Once, on a particularly heavy day, I climbed over the edge of my balcony in Los Angeles and stood there, a million thoughts running through my head as I stared down at the ground, my eyes going in and out of focus.

"I don't think I would have jumped. It was more about knowing that I could - that I had a way out if it became too much."

Madison often had suicidal thoughts at the age of 16. However, her little brother managed to convince her to step back from the edge of the balcony.

She said: "My little brother found me and screamed for my parents, and as I climbed back over, listening to them all freak out, I was only confused why they were making such a big deal out of it.

"The thought of killing myself was so normal to me at that point that I had forgotten it wasn't something everyone pondered on a daily basis."


  • Samaritans of Singapore: 1800-221-4444
  • Singapore Association for Mental Health: 1800-283-7019
  • Care Corner Counselling Centre (Mandarin): 1800-353-5800
  • Institute of Mental Health's Mental Health Helpline: 6389-2222
  • Silver Ribbon: 6386-1928


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